🌿 Hibernation Season: Grieving What Was, Preparing for What’s to Come

Today’s been one of those days where I’ve just had to sit still and be honest with myself. Many of you know I’ve been diving deep into my relationship with the Lord. I’m in ministry school, studying Biblical Hebrew, taking worldview classes with the Colson Fellows, and working through theology with the National Bible Institute. And through all of it, something in me has been shifting.

In my desire to grow closer to Christ, I’ve felt this pulling away from the world. It’s not just about living a “Christian worldview,” but asking—what does a Kingdom worldview really look like? And in that desire to be one with God, I’ve found myself withdrawing.

That’s unusual for me. I’m normally the go-go-go, help-everybody, make-it-happen type. But lately, God’s been calling me into a slower space. I’ve always said that November ushers in hibernation season—a sacred time to retreat, reflect, and prepare for what’s next. Just like nature rests before spring, I feel Him inviting me into stillness—into a cocoon.

🕊️ Grieving the Shift

As I sat with God today, I realized I’m grieving. Grieving business partnerships that have ended.Grieving friendships that have faded. Grieving relationships that didn’t become what I hoped. Grieving who my business used to be—and who God is now calling it to become. Grieving the old version of me—the one who lived more for the world than for the Kingdom.

This time of year also brings the memory of my grandfather’s passing—it’s been almost three years—and that reminder of loss just deepens the reflection.

But this grief isn’t hopeless. It’s holy. Because grief clears space for growth, it’s how God makes room for new beginnings.

🌱 The Invitation:

So, if you’ve been feeling “off,” distant, or uncertain—hold space for yourself. Be honest about where you are. Grieve what’s ending. Release what no longer fits. And prepare for what God is birthing in you next.

Take time this season to:

• Reflect on what you’ve already let go of.

• Identify what still needs to be released.

• Create a vision for your hibernation season—what rest, reflection, and preparation will look like for you.

  
  

For me, this means more rest.

More Word.

More family.

More silence.

More alignment with Kingdom purpose.

This is not a time to hustle—it’s a time to heal. To peel back the layers and rediscover the core of who you are—who you are in God, who you are to others, and who you’re becoming in Christ.

🤍 There are safe spaces to pause. There are safe spaces to not have it all together. And most importantly—there’s grace for every season, even this one.